Life is funny isnt it. You start out at something. You have thoughts and expectations. You jump in, full of passion and hopes. You do your best, try hard. Get back up when the knocks and bumps come along. Then one day you step back and wonder why the hell you are continuing to persevere at something which is causing you so much grief. The hopes and dreams have disappeared and now you realise were most likely never going to be actualised because your initial assumptions were wrong. So now you are at the point of decision. Throw in the towel and get your life back, or keep trying to make it work. Scary little precipice on which I stand. Consequences for both sides are unpleasant, on one side for me, on the other, for those around me, but we all need happiness, even me. The mum who sacrifices all lives life as a shadow. Which way do I lean……..